3.9.2025
Life is going to be very difficult for me, could be more than already is, could be the same, but there is not going to be such things as: easy life.
One of the many difficulties will be regarding the fact that I won’t be able to meet the people I want and need, therefore loneliness will be a background hum, reminding me of that fact.
What type of people you need?
People with whom I can talk about everything and anything, we can be debating, going deep into topics, yapping, sharing life struggles and frustrations, something like that. It’s gender neutral, preferably in person and other words that fit that criteria are: community, close circle of friends.
Why do you need such people?
I just do. After years of forced isolation, I thought that I was introverted, but that’s not the case, I notice my energy levels and overall mood going up after each good conversation.
Is it really that difficult to find those people?
It seems like it, nowadays I notice that people are either busy or not interested in the same things as me, or just on their phones. it’s not that I haven’t tried, but I don’t bond over alcohol and phone staring. Also some don’t have things to say, after being alive for so many years, not a single story, opinion about something, piece of wisdom, nothing, just some preferences and that’s all.
I want to clarify that no such thing as “pointing fingers” is happening here. It’s just how I have experienced those things, there could be something wrong with me, that I’m not aware of, yet.