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1.11.2024
rotting
It’s getting on me… I feel really stuck. The unfulfilled desire is just mentally degrading.
The question is what do I do? Spot isn’t helping… Do I go here, do I go there? If I go and nothing happens? How do I even start things?
29.10.2024
A simple desire
To have someone to talk to, to discuss a difficult topic, to brainstorm ideas / solutions…
No matter the location, it seems like I can’t yet find that, I don’t understand why…
Quality of interaction with people affects quality of life…
24.10.2024
Tell my why…
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wSgChEB7QIs
19.10.2024
”Do what you love"
"Well the world couldn’t sustain that much baseball players and ballerinas”
sometimes enjoyment comes from competency.
and competency doesn’t happen until you’ve sucked at it for a while.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vEHljE3MJhE
Now when survival isn’t a primary objective and comforts are plenty, intelligence or simply put, curiosity and learning and exploring should be the primary objective. But still, we are playing the limbic game of materialism, instead of developing the cortex. Sad but, I hope we get there. if not - whatever, anyway.
Do you know how many summers you will see?
Less than a hundred.
Less than your average life expectancy too since you already missed a few to develop the sensory factory to enjoy “the summer”.
It’s a finite thing, the summers you will see.
Death is a thing that many forget and diligently avoid thinking about.
Why think about it when TikTok can make you laugh, insta can make you jealous, threads can make you poor and a failure.
But at the end, everybody dies. sooner or later.
How would things change if death was your shadow?
how would you treat people?
how would you do things?
what would you even do?
distracted by bullshit so that game can continue.
Nothing to be afraid of
because you gonna fucking die
nothing of this is gonna really matter
cultural push to care about bullshit
distracted by bullshit
because of people really stopped and said: wait a minute I have a finite number of days, and I not gonna spend it being fucking miserable, being a cog in this machine and the purpose of which is not to serve me but some “greater” thing enjoyed only by the top 1%.
marriage and love have nothing to do with each other.
“don’t remember the orgasm, remember the first day I met and how she looked, remember how we did things” ejaculation doesn’t matter, memories and companionship does.
Talking as form of manipulation:
instead of saying:
can we try anal?
say:
A:omg I had this dream last night… so dirty
B: what really, what was it about?
A: nah I don’t wanna say it, I ate diary before bed or something.
B: no, what was it?
A: it was wild and we did anal and this and that
And there could be two reactions which helps you out:
- B: oh no, never, I don’t wanna do that
- A: yeah me neither
OR - B: Oh is it something you would like?
- A: I don’t know, maybe, I didn’t think I will like it maybe subconsciously I do maybe
And now there is a conversation going on, not only a conversation, but a safe one.
turn something awkward into something comfortable.
Manipulation, the art of getting what you want while not being awkward/ intrusive
begs the question, is speech and human interaction mostly for manipulation. It makes me rethink what we “talk” for, and why.
comparison is so weird to me.
On one side “comparison is the thief of joy”
Social media flexing of fake success, beauty, blabla, you do get a bit of that urgh feeling, like am I doing things right kind of thing.
But then on the other side you have
Ah I’m so grateful to have this and that BECAUSE many don’t have that.
He volunteered in a hospice, soon to be dead people.
”I’m listening to the rain sounds and thinking, I’m not dying, at least not like them”
And those dying people in there are nothing more than an object of comparison.
Oh I’m so lucky to have a house and car and wifi and internet and toilet paper and clean water, because kids in Africa are dying of thirst, never knowing what wifi is, sounds a bit too much, no?
I mean, they aren’t explicitly saying that. And you could indeed be grateful about those things without comparing, like the same child in Africa could be grateful that today he got to eat and drink for a bit, and that will be a symbol for perseverance and stuff, but. idk
I am biased here since I live off the idea if comparison is the thief of joy than don’t compare yourself to others since everyone is “unique” and stuff. Everyone is born in different environment and stuff so comparison doesn’t make sense, it’s like comparing apples to mushrooms.
Also this ladder disgusts me:
- the more fortunate people compare themselves to those bellow them to feel better about themselves
- the normal people compare themselves to miserable people
- and the miserable people are the main object of comparison, that’s their worth.
I guess it’s me who somehow associated comparison with gratitude. There is some intermingling between those two because of stupid people who copy what fortunate people do.
Let’s do gratitude without comparison and see if it works. also the word lucky is tricky here, fuck that shit.
I am feeling nice, for the simple fact that I have this cool thinkpad and I enjoy using it.
I am glad I am a lawyer, because first of all I enjoy doing the job, good money, mentally stimulating.
Nah, I’m not sure if gratitude works for me, it’s whatever, maybe because my mental state is shit and so it reflects. I’m barely writing anything but intellectuals like James Sexton made me want to write, his perls of wisdom are worth noting down.
13.10.2024
A: Where is your ass?
B: I don’t have one, I’m Vietnamese
A: Where is your personality
B: I don’t have one, I use TikTok 3 hours per day.
A: What do you like to do?
B: sleep and being taken care of
A: Imma go get myself a bamboo tree, it’s flat like you, but can’t speak.
B: no cooch though
A: Do I look like an amputee to you?
2.10.2024
A: I want my next soulmate to have VA’s looks and MT’s brain
B: Did you just called your ex stupid and you most memorable date ugly?
A: never said that, but I’m glad you can read minds.
28.9.2024
I don’t have celebrity crushes or that kind of shit, like Henry Cavill is handsome, Scarlet Johansson is not bad, Anne Hathaway is… wow…, Ryan Reynolds is charismatic but goddamn Selena Gomez in her thirties is a goddamn baddie and that’s something important to write down. I did try to text her but she told me to “calm down” in a very creative way
22:02
Who am I kidding, I do have a list of wow:
- Jennifer Connelly
- Anne Hathaway
- Selena Gomez
- Rachel McAddams
- Elizabeth Olsen is WAO
Hot takes tho:
- Margot Robbie is meh
- Ana de Harmas is meh meh overliked
- who was that newest one who was liked because of the racks: Capital of Australia + Sweeney
24.9.2024
I guess no more badminton then. You talked the talk, very charming, different even, but at the end you didn’t walk the walk. But I don’t blame you, you have my respects. Wish you well. Remember, nobody is 100% busy, it’s all about priorities and decency.
23.9.2024
WRITE MORE, WRITING ISN’T BAD DUDE, GO TO NHÀ KHO AND TYPE ON THAT FUCKING KEYBOARD. also check some notes on the chonky vault.
23.8.2024
Inflate your tits, deflate your brain.
24.7.2024
thối để thu hút con ruồi, thơm để thu hút phụ nữ.
7.7.2024
I do not understand why such a hot place like Hanoi can have so much snowflaky personalities. Harsh environments create strong people but I guess AC has spoiled most, if not all.
14.7.2023
real people with real lives have no time to make it glamorous on social media, no matter the achievements. Cheers to those who know what is it actually to be alive and to live.
19.4.2023
“Don’t walk behind me; I may not lead. Don’t walk in front of me; I may not follow. Just walk beside me and be my friend.”
-Albert Camus
22.9.2022
Simple request: If you have not ever asked me a question about myself or my life, don’t talk behind my back like you know me. I work in the same place as you, interact with the same people as you, it doesn’t mean you know me better than my mom (even she doesn’t). Applies to everyone, it’s just a matter of simple respect. Life is already difficult enough, let’s not make it more difficult for each other.
25.7.2022
xiên bẩn có vị ung thư.